On Valentines day 2017, my Doctor has finally given me the diagnosis I knew was coming. I've been sick for a long time, and about a year and 1/2 ago it was pointed out to me by my dear friend that my symptoms really seem like I have something going on and I might want to look in the direction of autoimmune. After a year and 1/2 of back and forth (probably dragged out through my lack of communication and self confidence as much as his stubbornness) with the doc, some really scary moments (Needle biopsy to the throat, anyone? I get to keep at that one here and there in the future too.) I finally got the bloodwork I'd been looking for, and it proves it... I'm not crazy. (Well, not out of the ordinary) I'm not a hypochondriac. I'm not just being lazy, brain dead, or wimpy. All the mood swings, the aches and pains, the multiple general but impactful symptoms... It's not in my head. I have a real, honest to God, there it is, showing in my blood, condition.
My body is trying it's best to kill my thyroid. My body is working in overtime to try to keep my hormones at level, while it tries so hard to kill off the component that produces those hormones, and is in doing so, throwing me way out of whack. I've likely been sick for a very long time, as I was symptomatic for at least a year or two before I was nudged in the right direction. I just got back from the Doc's office, where I got the official word... Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. And now I get to start treatments, which means tinkering with hormones, until they get level, so if I get extra kooky, above and beyond my usual, please forgive me.
I have to tell you, I couldn't be happier. It's real. It's treatable. I wasn't making it all up. And it's something I've been already working on at home by changing diet and lifestyle. (Restarting that same program from scratch as I speak, even.) So I've got a head start. For those of you that have been in the know, thank you for putting up not only with my repeating myself over and over, but for sticking by me and being SO supportive through all of this. And Shannon, I would never have caught on if it wasn't for you. I wouldn't have known the direction to push. And I wouldn't have had the head start on healing that I've got. And to my Hubby and my Kids who have, more than anyone else, truly endured the brunt of all of this... I am such a lucky woman to be so blessed.
So today begins the very first day of the rest of my brand new life. Today I'm enabled to bring myself back to the person I know I am. I take my next steps to no longer being my symptoms, because I tell you this, they take over if you let them. There's still a road ahead of me that will have it's bumps, but today I know what direction to travel.
So today begins the very first day of the rest of my brand new life. Today I'm enabled to bring myself back to the person I know I am. I take my next steps to no longer being my symptoms, because I tell you this, they take over if you let them. There's still a road ahead of me that will have it's bumps, but today I know what direction to travel.
